Everything, Everyone
I think this year you are going to ask me again
to tell you something I am thankful for,
this being Thanksgiving again, like last year,
or was it the year before that we all sat in the living
room, some with kids in their laps fidgeting
and not really getting the point and some with a beer
or a glass of wine on their knees and some,
just one or two, nodding off into a sofa
and a family all around and a long, long life behind,
the last of the debts paid, the arrangements
already made with the church, the will updated
one last time, the important private conversations—
you know which ones I am talking about,
the ones where they look you in the eye as if it’s
for the first time and take you so gently by the hand
as if you were ten years old again, the conversations
they’d meant to have with you all along—
finally over and done with so that now they can just
nod off, which is, or was, their version
of something to be thankful for,
and knowing how much there really is
to be thankful for—my own family, for instance,
meaning everyone, everyone in this living room and
many who are not, the world really, and some
who will never be again, and for my own life
lengthening like a shadow in the afternoon,
every year longer, a shadow to be thankful for.
I think you are going to ask me again to say it,
that thing that I am so thankful for, so that I
should sit down for once with pen and paper
and make a list and from that list choose that one
thing for which I am most thankful,
but I can’t, honestly, I can’t, because honestly
there’s too much on the list and I am thankful for
everything on it, for all of it and for you.